I feel better after some rest. I don't feel as bad as last post, lol. Lately I haven't been eating well, for some reason I have just been craving more sweet food but I'm not sure why. I think it's sleep deprivation because I just don't get enough sleep. I don't like to go to bed so early, and I don't like having to wake up early unwillingly. I just wish schools, businesses, and everybody as a whole would stop forcing us to wake up so early and let us sleep in; we have the technology, 2 extra hours isn't going to kill us.
Besides that, I hate college. I seriously have been lied to. This place is literally just a busy work factory. I am genuinely considering dropping out. It makes me feel like a loser, but I'd rather have no degree than tens of thousands of dollars of debt. I want to be happy and enjoy things, be able to do hobbies, work my job in peace, not having to worry about homework or talking with a teacher (ahem sorry, "Professor."), not needing to worry about going to mandated meetings or else my GPA will be tanked, and all this stupid weight. Can I just, I don't know, live? Can't we just do the work in class, you know kind of like what it's meant for, and be able to go home? I would never recommend college, and never recommend anyone going to college to go to mine or any. College is only fun if your extroverted, and I am not. I get made fun of and told off that I need to "go out and be more social," when I don't relate to any of the generic people I meet. I don't say that in a derogatory way, I just genuinely think I am not compatible with people like that. College feels dead, people here feel fake.
On a more positive note, I'm making some art, and soon it'll be on the banners here. I don't normally like to use other people's art as a placeholder, I like to make stuff for my own things but it doesn't look too bad. I'll have a custom banner and hopefully custom background soon.